‘Sometimes I’d Just Burst Out Crying For No Reasons’- Simi Opens Up On Dark Side Of Giving Birth
During the interview, Simi was asked:
Has there been a dark moment for you since giving birth? Has anything been really bad for you?
To which Simi answered:
Yeah of course. Especially early on, I had something called baby blues a few days after I had Deja. From the research that I did, it’s a very mild form of PPD. I had some anxiety. Even before that, I used to deal with some anxiety so I think that can compound it.
And I think I had post-partum OCD as well which I never really thought about OCD in that way until I saw how it can really impact you. Your hormones are all over the place.
Sometimes I’d just burst out crying for no reasons. Sometimes I’d just be in the bathroom like oh my god and I’d be crying. Sometimes my husband would ask me something very random, not even that deep oh, and I’ll cry.
I remember one time when we were leaving the hospital, we were praying just before we drove off and it got to the part when he was praying about my friends that had been there for me and supporting me, and I started crying.
I don’t know why I was crying. So yeah, I had moments like that but I think that as you go on, your body starts to adapt and your mind starts to adapt because it has to.
You start to see that you can do this, it can actually work out. Obviously you have to change some things – you don’t have as much alone time, you don’t have as much me time.
But you can do it and when you start to have that confidence, you start to trust yourself more. And when you start to trust yourself more, it becomes easier, you start to be kinder to yourself and that’s’ why second time moms probably have it easier in that department because they’ve gone through it before so when they see the signs, it’s easier for them to say I’m gonna be okay.
But the first time around, it’s the first time and you’re like bruh this is the ghetto. What is going on?